Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Me..




I look so much like my mom.
If I could turn back time. And since I can't..I have to learn how to live with myself.
God help me.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Thanksgiving..



Started cooking Wednesday(day before thanksgiving). When I was little, mommy use to have a beer in one hand as she cooked dinner,with her salsa music playing. Thats what I'm doing:) Miss you mommy.
I love you.
**My heart is so heavy. Its a cross between anxiety, laughter and sadness.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Holidays are near...



Holidays are near
and I have some fears
because your not here.
I will try my best
to put on a good face
because it still hurts that your not here.
I have to now hold dearly
the memories and the times
I hold so near...


 I love you mommy

(God give me strength)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I Had a Good Mother


I HAD A GOOD MOTHER
There is no name in all the world like MOTHER,It stands out above any other.To be a mother, a woman endures great pain,And yet after the child is born, she would do it again.She will lovingly and tenderly care for her child's development.,Always alert for every unusual little movement.A child will look to its mother for comfort and care,It just seems to know that mother will be there.She will give her all to help her child, her whole life through, Yet, we are often unthankful for all that mothers do.So let her know how much you love her real well,For only that can YOU tell.For one day you'll wish you had, And it will be too late – how sad.

This poem is from J.H. Blackman

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Today..

I opened the mail box and there was a letter. Addressed to me, for my mom. My heart went heavy. I hate this. No responses necessary. I have these moments. I get through them. The only time I get worried is when feeling the grief, your not sure how long it will last and you can only pray it leaves fast. Shes my mother, of course I'm hurting.I'm not afraid to show that side.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Happy Birthday Mommy


Tomorrow is your birthday

Tomorrow is your birthday..oh how I wish you were here..
I miss your smile and your scent that I would hold so near..
This is the first time I don't have you near..
on this occasion that God gave me you.. for so many years..
God also created you to bring forth life to 7 wonderful, beautiful kids..
Such a beautiful mother you were..
and a beautiful mother I want to be..
because you planted the seed
that made me.. and my beautiful family.

Happy Birthday mommy. I miss you.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Love her Honorably...

Love her honorably

Exodus 20:12

Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee.



This is binding as long as your mother lives. Another command says children, obey…non-binding when you leave home, but “honor” is different! If the husband is the head of the home, then the mother is the heart...don’t break her heart!



And remember the Bible says nothing about that qualification…it only asks, is she your mother!

It’s the only one of the 10 commandments which includes a built-in promise of blessing!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Monday, July 27, 2009

Complaining..

Complaining why you didn't have a mother who raised you and maybe you had to be raised by someone else?
Open your eyes and realize that she is a good unselfish mother. She knew she couldn't care for you,so she had to leave. Always love your mother. Faults and all. Don't throw stones. You don't know what a mother is really battling. She doesn't say it all. She can't.Thats how we are designed.

Scriptures about moms..

A Patient Mother -- Psalm 37:7; Psalm 40:1; Psalm 71:5; Ecclesiastes 7:8-9; Isaiah 40:31; Jeremiah 17:7; Luke 21:19; Romans 5:3-5; Romans 8:25; Romans 15: 4,5,13; Galatians 5:22; Philippians 4:13; Hebrews 6:12; Hebrews 10:35-37; James 1:3,4; James 5:7,8; 2 Peter 1:5,6
A Loving Mother -- Proverbs 10:12; Song of Solomon 8:7; John 13:34,35; John 15:9,10,12-17; Romans 13:8,10; 1 Corinthians 13:1-8a; 1 Corinithians 13:13; Ephesians 5:2; 1 Thessalonians 3:12; Hebrews 6:10; Hebrews 10:24; James 2:8; 1 John 3:11; 1 John 3:14; 1 John 3:18; 1 John 4:7,8; 1 Peter 4:8;
A Giving Mother -- Malachi 3:10-12; 2 Chronicles 15:7; Psalm 112:5; Proverbs 3:9,10; Proverbs 19:17; Proverbs 22:9; Proverbs 28:27; Ecclesiastes 11:1; Matthew 10:8; Matthew 19:29; Luke 6:38; 1 Corinthians 16:2; 2 Corinthians 9:6-8; 1 Timothy 6:17-19; 1 John 3:17-18
A Resourceful Mother -- Job 32:8; Job 33:16; Psalm 16:7; Psalm 32:8; Psalm 51:6; Psalm 138:8; Proverbs 1:5; Proverbs 4:7,8; Proverbs 8:17,18,21; Proverbs 12:5; Proverbs 13:20; Proverbs 24:14; Isaiah 42:9; Matthew 7:7; Luke 14:28; James 1:5
A Godly Example as a Mother -- 2 Chronicles 29:2; Proverbs 13:20; Matthew 10:42; Matthew 20:28; Mark 10:43,44; Luke 10:37; John 13:15,16,34; Romans 15:5-7; 1 Corinthians 4:2; 1 Corinthians 15:58; Galatians 6:2,10; Ephesians 5:1,2; Ephesians 6:5,7; Philippians 2:5-8; Colossians 3:13,22; 1 Peter 2:21; 1 John 2:16; 1 John 3:16
A Diligent Mother -- 2 Chronicles 15:7; Esther 4:14b; Proverbs 10:5; Proverbs 12:24; Proverbs 13:4; Proverbs 21:5; Proverbs 22:29; Habakkuk 3:19; John 4:35; John 9:4; Galatians 6:10; Ephesians 3:20; Philippians 4:13; Hebrews 6:11; James 1:5; 2 Peter 3:14; Revelation 3:8
An Honest Mother -- Exodus 19:5; 1 Kings 3:14; Job 2:3; Psalm 1:1,2; Psalm 25:10; psalm 111:10; Psalm 119:2,4; Psalm 26:1; Psalm 41:12; Psalm 78:72; Proverbs 11:3; Proverbs 19:1,16; Proverbs 20:7; Isaiah 1:19; Romans 12:17; Philippians 4:8; 1 Peter 2:12
An Understanding Mother -- Proverbs 3:5,6; Psalm 18:30; Psalm 27:11; Psalm 119:125, 130, 169; Proverbs 8:14; Proverbs 16:22,23; Proverbs 24:3,4; Isaiah 55:8,9; Jeremiah 33:3; Luke 24:45; Romans 8:2; Ephesians 1:17,18; Ephesians 5:17; 1 John 5:20
A Creative Mother -- Exodus 4:12; Joshua 1:7; Job 32:8; Job 33:16; Psalm 16:7; Psalm 32:8; Psalm 138:8; Proberbs 1:5; Proverbs 4:7,8; Proverbs 8:17,18; Proverbs 24:14; Isaiah 42:9; Isaiah 43:19; Isaiah 48:6,7; Isaiah 50:4; Habakkuk 2:2,3; Zechariah 4:10; Matthew 7:7; Luke 14:28; Ephesians 6:8
A Hospitable Mother -- Romans 12:13; Titus 1:8; 1 Peter 4:9; Psalm 119:63; Proverbs 17:17a; Proverbs 18:24; Proverbs 22:24; Isaiah 54:10; Matthew 12:50; Luke 11:9; Luke 14:10; John 14:18; John 15:12-16; 1 Corinthians 1:9; Hebrews 13:5; 1 John 1:7; Revelations 3:20
A Courageous Mother -- Deuteronomy 31:6; Deuteronomy 31:23b; Joshua 1:6; 1 Chronicles 28:20; 2 Chronicles 15:7; Psalm 31:24; Proverbs 8:14; Isaiah 41:10; Habakkuk 3:19; Acts 1:8; 1 Corinthians 1:27; 1 Corinthians 12:8; 2 Corinthians 9:8; Ephesians 3:20; Philippians 4:13; James 1:5
A Joyful Mother -- 1 Chronicles 16:31; Psalm 4:7; Psalm 5:11; Psalm 30:5b; Psalm 37:4; Psalm 89:15; Psalm 100:1-4; Psalm 126:5; Proverbs 15:13; Proverbs 17:22; Isaiah 55:12; Habakkuk 3:17,18; Luke 10:20; Romans 15:13; Galatians 5:22; Ephesians 5:19; 1 John 1:4
A Consistent Mother -- Malachi 3:6a; 1 Chronicles 28:7; Psalm 3:3; Psalm 27:1,3,5; Psalm 118:8; Proverbs 3:5,6; Proverbs 3:26; Proverbs 16:9; Isaiah 40:29; Isaiah 50:7a; John 12:26; 1 Corinthians 13:8; James 1:5
A Good Listener as a Mother -- Proverbs 1:5-8; Proverbs 18:15; Isaiah 28:14; Ezekiel 40:4a; Matthew 7:26,27; Matthew 13:16; Luke 8:18; Luke 10:16; John 8:47; John 18:37; James 1:22; James 1:23; James 1:25; Revelation 2:29
A Compassionate Mother -- Isaiah 58-9,11; Psalm 23:1; Psalm 25:10; Psalm 37:21; Psalm 78:38; Proverbs 21:21; Proverbs 28:13; Isaiah 49:15; Jeremiah 12:15; Mark 6:34; Luke 7:12,13; 1 Corinthians 13:4-7; 1 Peter 3:8

Friday, June 19, 2009

I Am My Mother's Keeper

Who will cook for me when I forget how to cook?

Who will feed me when I forget how to pick up a spoon?

Who will take care of me when I'm sick and take me to the doctors?

Who will dress me when I can't move?

Who will clean me when I get dirty?

Who will love me when I start to change?

Who will be there and not forget me?

Who will pray for me when I can't pray for myself?

Who will love me nomatter what?

Who will remember who I was?

Who will know that I can't control this disease?

I WILL MOM! I WILL..

YOU SACRIFICED FOR ME AND I WILL SACRIFICE FOR YOU.

I AM MY MOTHER'S KEEPER.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

How to make life easier for the both of you..


These things can help in making life easier as this disease progresses..

*While they can still sign their name,make sure someone responsible is designated to have power of attorney.You can buy these forms at office supply places or the internet.Have it notarized.
*Make pre-arrangements with funeral home.Its better to make the arrangements when your mind is clear,not when it actually happens.
*Join a support group or mentor
*Put a plastic over the mattress,then put the fitted sheet on
*Put a towel under them when they sit on the sofa
*Make sure you take your loved one to the bathroom before bed time
*Buy "Depends"
*Have certain times for everyday things such as, bath time,bed time,breakfast,snack,lunch,dinner,etc. Have a set routine.It makes it easier to say, its lunch time now. They will get use to the schedule and having a schedule will help in staying on task.
*If you keep them home,hire a HHA or CNA to help you with somethings or enroll them in an adult day care
*If you choose a nursing home,then make sure you do visits weekly,know the staff,attend care plan meetings and label your loved ones things. buy them their own items such as,tearless shampoo,lotion,etc. Let the nursing home know that you want to be called if anything minor and major ahppens. Give them all your telephone numbers.
*Skin gets very dry with certain meds,so be sure to look at their skin and keep it moisturized.if you need to make an appt with the dermatologist, do so.Check behind the ears for chafting as well.
*Have podiatrist take care of their feet.Swelling and other foot problems may occur.
*Massage legs gently
*Assist in hygiene or make sure you know the bathing times that the nursing home does. Always check your loved ones.Bring them their favorite snack when you visit:)
*Buy tank tops or comfortable bras. Comfortability is the key.
*Buy pants that has elastic waist
*Buy nurse shoes.There very comfortable
*If falling becomes a problem, add bed rails to the bed
*Add vitamins,minerals and fiber with their regular meds
*If their losing weight,ask the dr if they recommend ensure or an extra drinking supplement or supplement pudding
*Buy simple games such as connect four,simple puzzles,coloring books,etc.Assist them and prompt them where to put the pieces and let them win connect four, make it fun!Sometime its all about them putting the pieces in the connect four and starting over.It helps with being figity. Also play dough helps with hand grip strengthening.
*Read to your loved one.
*Play music they like
***More tips coming soon!

Fever..



If you notice a sudden fever, please do not just put it off as a cold and leave untreated.Also make sure you keep doctor appts and dentist appts. Gum disease can cause heart problems and other health problems. They may not want to go,but you have to take them, for there own good. Your loved one may not be able to communicate with you properly about what exactly is bothering them. It can be many things including a U.T.I. if left untreated can cause big problems. I remember I went to go see my mom at the nursing home and something told me,that she is not feeling well.I called the nurse and asked the nurse how she is doing and she said she was good. I told the nurse,just take her temp please. I was right, there was something wrong.
My mother had a U.T.I. It was 3 years ago and she was hospitalized for 2 weeks.She also developed pulmonary problems at the sametime. I just had my second neck surgery and I stayed with her in the hospital. Nothing,not even sickness kept me away from being with my mom. I'm glad I went that day to see her.I was in a neck brace and in alot of pain but I was drawn to my mom that particular day.
When she was released,she lost the ability to walk.The dementia was getting worse.

*If your love ones "balance" is starting to be a problem, they need 24 hour supervision.

Its important to test now..


Having blood work done can do alot of preventing or delaying of alzheimers. People that have complained about fatigue,weight gain,moodiness during the winter months have been linked with a thyroid disorder, hypothyrodism-a condition that if left untreated,can lead to dementia later in life. Recent studies were performed from harvard researchers. Thyroid hormones may regulate the production of a protein called amyloid,which could cause damage brain cells. Ask your doctor for a blood test if your sluggish or have any of the symptoms as stated. Do not leave untreated.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Signs of Alzheimers & Help

Help: 24 hour hot line- www.alz.org/cnfl, www.alzheimerresourcecenter.org
In florida: 407-843-1910

Alzheimers. Please educate yourself on this disease that takes our loved ones and turns them into strangers and it eventually kills them. Watching them go through the changes is painful and fustrating, but remember one thing..THEY CAN'T HELP IT.ITS CONTROLLING THEM.

If you notice any signs, take them to the doctor immediately for testing.
Sign to watch out for and signs that you will eventually see as they progress into the disease..
*Gets lost in familiar places
*Has trouble handling money
*Repeats the samething or ask the same questions
*Has trouble writing,reading,talking,playing
*Takes longer to complete everyday tasks
*May not want to do everyday task such as bathing,tooth brushing,etc. Assist them if this happens
*Doesn't like Dr visits
*Moody/outburst
*Your loved one may threathen you or threathen to hurt themselves.Just reassure them and be patient and soft spoken.let them know you love them.
*Emotional
*Doesn't finish sentences
*Loses things or misplaces them. Putting things in odd places
*Loses control of bladder
*Paces back and forth.Hard to stay still,or stands around,or sits alot
*May turn things on.So be careful with the stove and hazards
*Fiddles with things
*Loss of appetite
*Loss of energy
*Stares at things for a long period of time
*Takes frequent naps
*Insomnia
*Smiles,laughs,angry facial expressions for no apparent reason
*Doesn't like change
*Has to be repeated and prompted to do things by others
*Stumbles-loss of balance
*Hand grip is getting weak
*Doesn't talk as much-words get mixed up
*Does things repeatively
*Wanders
*Doesn't want to go outside or keeps trying to go outside
*Gets irritated when people try to help them with things or with a task-In the beginning they feel embarrassed and humiliated so it comes off as them being angry at you
***Please be patient and read about the disease,so that you can understand it.
God bless you and your loved one. Your not alone. If you need to post any concerns or just vent,feel free to do so in this blog.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

As Mothers Day approaches..

I have been in an emotional state of mind since my mother passed away,
Feb 13th, 2009. I went to a memorial service at the nursing home that she spent her few years being sick. It was very emotional for me and I couldn't stop crying. Entering that building again and knowing that I'm not going to the second floor to see her, was overwhelming for me. Writing about it is helping me. It is truly a journey what one goes through when losing their mother. Very emotional and having your heart feel heavy and no one showing they care. They ignore you probably because they just donot know what to say. For those that are not sure what to say, the best thing to do is just be there to just listen and be there for them. Let them do the talking. When we vent, we allow our emotions to come out,which is a good thing instead of having it suppressed which can turn into depression. Donot say things like,"it will stop hurting in time". Speak in the present. They are going through this Now. They have every right to feel the way they do, it was their mother. Know when to seek intervention if you notice the person is depressed. Take them to the doctor for some preventative help,if it gets worse. You can also seek help from your clergy or a hospice clergy is a great counselor. They are experienced with dealing with death.The person that is grieving will not say when they need someone to console them, you have to be observant.Instead of ignoring them,be there for them in their time of need.
http://www.dabar.org/Cottrell/HISWAY/ch13.htm

Today I woke up Thankful. I shared some feelings on "I'm Sorry" and I shared some feelings on "A Mother", on here. Now I will share my "Thank You".

Thank you mommy for taking care of me when I was sick.

Thank you mommy for making sure I eat.

Thank you mommy for putting a roof over my head.

Thank you mommy for teaching me how to cook.

Thank you mommy for making my clothes.

Thank you mommy for teaching me how to use my talents.

Thank you mommy for teaching me tough love.

Thank you mommy for teaching me how to defend myself.

Thank you mommy for protecting me.

Thank you mommy for raising me.

Thank you mommy for the years.

Thank you mommy for being my mommy.


Most importantly,I Thank you God for giving me such a Beautiful Mother I had the priviledge to have her for 38 1/2 years. I understand you had to take her back.
Help me when I feel Lost.

**Happy Mothers Day.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009


From the Author: Maria Amparo Mixon
Realize that moms know alot more than you think. Do you think all that grey hair is from getting older? No.. its not, its from wisdom. God Bless you.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I Will Succeed

I Will Succeed

No matter what you say or what you do to me I will succeed
I won't let anything, anyone make me think I can't succeed
My children will be proud that Mommy never let anyone hold her down
from being the best I can be
BecauseI will succeed
My children, as well, will succeed
because I planted that seed
that whatever you want to be you will be
I will succeed!

Monday, April 13, 2009


By: Maria Amparo

Copyright 2009

Mommy I Love You

Mommy I love you, I cherish you,I look up to you and I thank you and I thank God for you.

The older I get the more I appreciate you more and more each day.

I am so grateful to have you as a mom.

I Love You Mommy.

Sorry

Sorry for not saying sorry..

I'm sorry

Sorry

Sorry for not listening to you

Sorry for blaming you for my mistakes

Sorry for everything I did and said that hurt you

Sorry for ignoring you

Sorry for not kissing you enough, or not kissing you at all

Sorry for not hugging you, or not hussing you enough

Sorry for not telling you I love you, or not telling you enough

Sorry for not saying thank you, or not saying thank you enough

Sorry

Sorry for thinking you didn't love me

Sorry for disrespecting you

Sorry for talking bad about you

Sorry for disobeying you

Sorry for not thinking about you

Sorry for not giving you a birthday card

Sorry for not showing you more love

Sorry

Sorry for complaining when I didn't get my way

Sorry for making you worry about me

Sorry for hurting you

Sorry for taking you for granted

Sorry for having you pay for my mistakes

Sorry for thinking my life was bad

Sorry for leaving home before I was ready

Sorry for the times I didn't speak to you

Give her flowers when shes able to smell them

A Mother can multi-task. A Mother can cook, clean, work,do laundry,go to the store,attend school functions,volunteers,pta mom,team mom,and so much more

A Mother can't hear you say I love you when shes passes

Give her flowers when shes able to smell them

When she no longer can take care of herself, her children or child has to take care of her

When a Mother loses one of her children,the pain is undescribable and can even change her life forever

You can always go back home to mom

I pray this book inspires you to appreciate your mother and notice how much she does

I have a few more inspirations to my mom....

A Mother

A Mother is a financial advisor

A Mother wipes her child's tears

A Mother teaches her child to try again and not give up

A Mother is irreplaceable

A Mother can be fair

A Mother can be unfair

A Mother stays when she wants to sometimes runaway

A Mother can be up all night worrying

A Mother

A Mother needs a break

A Mother is a storyteller

A Mother stays up and waits until her children comes home

A Mother doesn't know how to take a break

A Mother can be tactful

A Mother knows where her children are at all times

A Mother is fearless

A Mother


A Mother hides her pain

A Mother can endure some heavy duty pain like labor

A Mother can endure emotional pain

A Mother still smiles when she doesn't feel like smiling

A Mother is a doctor

A Mother is a human

A Mother feels like a failure when she can not provide or be there for her children

A Mother

A Mother protects

A Mother shares

A Mother will always be there when no one else is there

A Mother still loves you after you made a mistake

A Mother makes mistakes

A Mother can feel unappreciated

A Mother can be moody

A Mother

A Mother finds it hard to say no

A Mother wants to learn it all, so she can teach her children

A Mother wants the best for her children

A Mother is a calendar planner, she never forgets and if she does, she will look on her pad because she wrote it down, so that she doesn't forget

A Mother is a teacher

A Mother hustles

A Mother

A Mother has strength

A Mother thinks about her children before she thinks about herself

A Mother makes sure her children eat and have what they need

A Mother sacrifices for her children

A Mother has very little sleep and can still take care of her children the next day

A Mother doesn't like to dissappoint her children

A Mother is a private investigator

A Mother is beautiful

Saturday, April 11, 2009

A Mother


A Mother wants her children to be happy


A Mother sometimes sacrifices her happiness for her children


A Mother works hard


A Mother is a woman


A Mother is wise


A Mother cries


A Mother takes care of her children even when shes sick

A Mother


A Mother fixes or tries to fix her children's mistakes


A Mother goes through multiple births,even though she knows her looks will change and the great pain that is ahead


A Mother wants the best for her children


A Mother uplifts her children


A Mother can take care of many children


A Mother has feelings

A Mother

A Mother is proud of her children

A Mother gives advice


A Mother teaches her children tough love


A Mother gives and shows love


A Mother laughs even when the joke wasn't funny


A Mother loves kisses, even when her children are all grown up

A Mother


A Mother can be dissappointed with her children


A Mother doesn't give up on her children


A Mother wants the best for her children


A Mother serves her children first and sometimes doesn't eat


A Mother loves God


A Mother


A Mother loves to capture her children's achievements


A Mother can embarrass her children


A Mother hurts when her children leave home


A Mother hurts when her children hurts


A Mother protects her children


A Mother




A Mother, even though she won't say it, would like praise from her children




A Mother wears different hats and fills many shoes




A Mother teaches her children to use their talents




A Mother can fuss




A Mother teaches her children not to be lazy








A Mother





A Mother's Love is Unconditional


A Mother gives and gives and gives


A Mother forgives her children,even when they hurt her


A Mother aims to please


A Mother gives praise to her children


My Mom

Dedication: This inspiration is dedicated to my mom.

She passed away Feb 13,2009.

I love you mommy.


Personalize this book:

To: Mommy



Love:___________________________________

A note to you mom

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